This life story is nothing but a long voyage… from what one believes to be to what one truly is, from the personal to the universal, from the partial to the total, from the unreal to the real, from the apparent to the true, from the temporal and transient to the eternal, from darkness to Light, from the human to the Divine. This story is not public but deeply private and intimate.
Disciple of a seer, of an enlightened being, of somebody who is nobody. Initiated in my spiritual childhood by the stars shining through the silence. Inspired by a seagull that loved flying more than anything else in life.
In love with the impossible, I crossed the universe chasing a star. I walked a thousand paths, following the footsteps of those who saw… with deep respect, but always in my own way.
As the ocean longing for water, I was looking for my home within my own house.
I love religion in all its various expressions, though I have never been affiliated with any in particular. I am not part of any organized religion, because enlightenment is not a social but a spiritual phenomenon. Truth does not permit institutionalization.
I publicly declare myself multireligious because my religion is one: the religion of love, and its temple is the heart. It is there that I offer up my prayers.
Even if my biography is put into words, it will always be incomplete, since what truly happens here is internal, imperceptible through the senses.
Almost every biography narrates the story of an ego – since the appearance of the physical body until its disappearance: where it was born, what it studied, what it ate, where it traveled, when it died. Biographies are related to events that occurred on the physical plane, within space and time, but they exclude what happens in the depths of the human being. A true biography must be of the soul and narrate the evolution of the spirit. In fact, it is irrelevant whether the world knows the historic events of your life or ignores them, because finally, everything is between you and God. In the end, reality only happens here and now, and who is interested in reading such words as: “I am existence, consciousness, and bliss”? The story of a seeker of Truth will necessarily refer to what has occurred in consciousness.
It is impossible to describe this life journey, which has no beginning or end, no birth or death, which never started and will never finish…
I am not a guide, instructor, educator, pedagogue, guru, evangelist, or master, but only a traveler whom you have asked for the way and who indicates the direction you are searching for. I gladly show you a place where everything calms down upon arrival… a place beyond the sun and the stars, beyond your desires and longings, beyond time and space, beyond your concepts and conclusions, beyond you.
I have not transformed my inner life into a profession or job. I do not preach, evangelize, educate, instruct, or teach anything to anyone. It is not my intention to convince anyone of anything. I only talk to myself, thinking aloud. The echo of these words can lead you to that infinite space which is peace, silence, love, existence, consciousness, and absolute bliss.
Do not search for me but for yourself. It is not me that you need, because the only thing that really matters is you. What you yearn for lies within, here and now, as what you are.
Avoid fame, for the true glory is not based on the public opinion, but on what you really are. Choose bliss over success, life over reputation, wisdom over information.
By flying you will learn that what matters is not to touch the sky but to have the courage to spread your wings. The higher you will fly, the smaller and less significant the world will look.
While walking, sooner or later you will understand that every search begins and ends in you.
Your unconditional well-wisher,
(Prabhuji is a professional writer and a avadhuta mystic who has chosen to retire from society and lead a solitary life. He spends his days completely secluded, writing in silence and absorbed in contemplation. Prabhuji is not a public figure and rejects any kind of promotion or personal publicity. He does not offer any sat-saṅgs, lectures, courses, conferences, or interviews; nor does he accept visitors, disciples, or followers. He shares his teachings only through books, online forums, and videos. We ask everybody to respect his privacy.)
“For this gull, though, it was not eating that mattered, but flight. More than anything else, Jonathan Livingston Seagull loved to fly. This kind of thinking, he found, is not the way to make one’s self popular with other birds.”
Jonathan Livingston Seagull
“So I say to you:
‘This is how to contemplate our conditioned existence in this fleeting world:
Like a tiny drop of dew, or a bubble floating in a stream; like a flash of lightning in a summer cloud,
or a flickering lamp, an illusion, a phantom, or a dream.
So is all conditioned existence to be seen.’
Thus spoke Buddha.”
Diamond Sutra, verse 32
“But you, when you pray, go into your room, close the door, and pray to your Father in secret. For your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.”
“One must go into solitude to attain this divine love. To get butter from milk you must let it set into curd in a secluded spot: if it is too much disturbed, milk won’t turn into curd. Next, you must put aside all other duties, sit in a quiet spot, and churn the curd. Only then do you get butter.”
In the thirteenth chapter of “Autobiography of a Yogi”, the master yogi, Ram Gopal Muzumdar, asks Yogananda: “Are you able to have a little room where you can close the door and be alone? That is your cave. That is your sacred mountain. That is where you will find the kingdom of God.”
“A transcendentalist should always try to concentrate his mind on the Supreme Self; he should live alone in a secluded place and should always carefully control his mind. He should be free from desires and feelings of possessiveness.”
Bhagavad Gita Chapter 6: 10
Rabbi Chaim Vital (1542-1620) writes when speaking of the “early saints” (chassidim rishonim) mentioned in the Talmud:
“These individuals would travel to rocky caves and deserts, secluded from the affairs of society. Some would seclude themselves in their homes, as isolated as those who went into the deserts. Day and night, they would continuously praise their Creator, repeating the words of the Torah, and chanting the Psalms, which gladden the heart.”
From “Sha’arey Kedushah” trans. By Rabbi Aryeh Kaplan on p.94 of “Meditation and Kabbalah.”
According to Rebbe Nachman of Breslav:
“Hitbodedut is the greatest thing – above all else. That is to establish at least one hour or more to be alone in some room, or in the field, and to voice one’s dialogue between himself and his Owner. Reasoning and arguing with graceful words of appeasement and conciliation, requesting and beseeching before Him who is Blessed to bring one close to His service in truth. And this prayer and supplication should be in the language one speaks naturally.”
Likutei Moharan II, 25
When his disciple M. asked him if it was possible to see God, Sri Ramakrishna replied: “Yes, certainly. Living in solitude now and then, repeating God’s name and singing His glories, and discriminating between the Real and the unreal─these are the means to employ to see Him.” About the first discipline he said: “One must go into solitude to attain…divine love.”
“I live in that solitude which is painful in youth, but delicious in the years of maturity.”
“Aloneness simply means completeness. You are whole; there is no need of anybody else to complete you.”
“Loneliness is the poverty of self; solitude is richness of self.”
“To be left alone is the most precious thing one can ask of the modern world.”
Anthony Burgess, Homage To Qwert Yuiop: Essays
“We carry about us the burden of what thousands of people have said and the memories of all our misfortunes. To abandon all that is to be alone, and the mind that is alone is not only innocent but young — not in time or age, but young, innocent, alive at whatever age — and only such a mind can see that which is truth and that which is not measurable by words.”
“We too are called to withdraw at certain intervals into deeper silence and aloneness with God, together as a community as well as personally; to be alone with Him — not with our books, thoughts, and memories but completely stripped of everything — to dwell lovingly in His presence, silent, empty, expectant, and motionless. We cannot find God in noise or agitation.”
Mother Teresa, In the Heart of the World: Thoughts, Stories and Prayers
“Whosoever is delighted in solitude is either a wild beast or a god.”